I lost 40 lbs just from insomnia, I felt so weak and just plain horrible, I couldn’t eat and no sleep meant no break from anything....a real life living hell. I just needed to sleep.
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“This Video was after I took a drug that would alter the course of my whole life and change me as a person forever. Almost every waking second was anxiety attack ridden”
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“Music helped me through. This was me in the writing process of a song about my mom, one of the many, too many losses in my life. It got so bad that I could only play for acouple minutes at a time the insomnia was so bad. ”
Until we can’t see the light anymore...
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“I slept 3 hrs a night for 6 months straight. It got so bad I would say the “Our Father” for 3 hrs straight laying there shaking waiting for someone, anybody to be awake. But I was all alone”
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My name is Brian Pierson and just like so many people, I hit a rough spot, well many many rough spots in life. A lot of loss and change and after awhile I became a little down, or depressed...not overly depressed in any sense, but depressed none the less. It was a divorce, a shitty situation but a very common situation that finally broke me and left me feeling all alone and defeated. I never been depressed or even unhappy up until then. I believe my reaction and depression was warranted under the circumstances.
I had 6 year old twins and there world, there Family was being ripped apart at just 6 years old and no matter how civil things might be or have been, this still was and is completely life changing for them and for us.
I don’t know what family might mean to some people, but I do know what it meant to me and meant to our family and our children. That’s what was so hard to handle. We did everything together. I was a recluse most of my life. So not having that family unit always there.....well let’s just say the effect this had and will have on the rest of there life lied so heavy on me.....I basically imploded in on myself. It wasn’t just that, but that was the biggest cog in the wheel
But because I wasn’t my usual happy hippy self some people thought I needed to take something, a prescription anti-depressant. I don’t blame them, I understand but what should of been something to help....turned my whole entire life upside down and plunged me into that Rabbit Role.
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“There’s nothing worse than not being yourself, and not being able to be yourself. That pretty much sums up Depression, Mental illnesses, and even Drug Addiction.”
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Excerpts from the Book
This is my 9 year old daughters artwork that was in a bunch of random artwork and drawings she did up in her room that she was going to throw away. So I was recording and searching my house for a Pen...Awesome, got it! Now paper....looked through my whole house and only had mail I could write on. Then I thought, I know who will have paper, Raina! and then found this....
I then purposely wrote the lyrics on the back of this so maybe 20 years later we can laugh and talk about what my purpose of this project was. We talk now but there’s only so much you can tell a 9 year old. This is Beauty personified......and it was just going to be thrown out. Man there’s a message in that. I hope it comes through in my writing. This is now the book cover
Two Years later we would lose my dad at 64. A day after the twins first birthday party.
And we go further down...
My Mom’s Rabbit Hole was Cancer. She Unfortunately lost that battle at the age of 62.
I know your Feeling Empty
I know you are Afraid
But there is no sunshine
Without the Rain
Without Lorraine
Let the Light Shine,
Let the Light Shine,
Let that Light Shine On